Old

Lately I've been feeling very old. 

It started out with this post about realizing how much my life has changed. And in the past week so much has happened to make me feel even more old. 

Last Friday I got the confirmation email from the professor I work for that the paper we've been working on for a year is officially submitted for publication! I was so excited I started tearing up. It has taken SO much hard work and stress to get that paper done. Seeing it published will just be the icing on the cake at this point.

In the past two days, two of my best friends growing up told me they are pregnant. Yes, two. I can't quite believe it, but, come October my friends are going to be the world's best moms!

In the past month, three of my best friends have come home from their missions and three more have left on theirs. Time seriously flies by. 

I got the second email from BYU reminding me about deadlines to apply for graduation. Scary.

Starting in three weeks I have to start seriously looking into graduate schools and studying for the GRE. Gulp.

I registered for my last fall semester of my undergraduate. I have quite the eclectic group of classes, let me tell you. Only one Psychology class, too. Obviously putting off graduation, eh? 

Spencer and Amy moved this week. It feels like the end of an era. Plus, spending time with all my nieces and nephews reminded me how old they are. Which means that I must be even older!

I turn 21 tomorrow.

These are adult things, people. Not little kid ones. All good things, yes (well, except that GRE thing). But still. 

I found this quote once that I've been thinking about a lot lately. 

"As you grow up, you will have your heart broken more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friends. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much and love like you've never been hurt. Because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."

Today, as a I feel old, I sort of want to cry because time is passing too fast. I love my life and don't want everything to change so quickly. Alas, time goes on. People come in and out our lives. We go in and out of the lives of others. It's hard, but it's all okay.

Everything is as it should be.